Coming in Like a Rushing Wind
A few months ago I began praying for a new vision, a new perspective for this photography journey that I am on. I knew my style was shifting and I was gaining ground towards producing the beautiful work I had always dreamed of getting to. However, I still had incredible fear in my heart and did not feel a clear purpose behind my work. But one evening in the quiet of my bedroom, digging through scriptures, trying to pull something, anything out for me, it came to me like a rushing wind.
Matthew 17:20- He [Jesus] replied, 'Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
Overcoming Doubt and Rising to Faith
As I have spoken about many times before, one of my biggest struggles is anxiety and depression and within that come fears, doubts, worry. You name it. So, naturally that will occasional feed over into my hopes and visions of my business as I feel all people are inclined to experience at different points within their lives. This verse spoke so clearly to me. The disciples could not perform the miracle they were trying to perform, not because of anything bad, but simply because they did not have the faith. They did not truly believe that God could do it. And what lies within anxiety, depression, fears? Lack of faith that you measure up or compare to others. I need more faith, deeper and deeper faith. Faith to step out into more courageous decisions and actions. More faith that the dreams and aspirations the Lord have laid on my heart are possible. More faith that as I begin taking baby steps of obedience, eventually I can have enough faith to move mountains, to do things and touch people and expand the love of Christ further than I ever thought possible simply on the basis of faith. Faith is powerful stuff my friends. And digging deeper is talks about the faith of a mustard seed. A mustard seed is one of the easiest to grow, produces a beautiful yellow flower, and is edible. So not only is is pleasing to look at, it is full of nourishment as well. And, it can self-sow if you all it to!! I just think of this with faith. If we simply step out into the small things God is calling us to, imagine what God can do with it? If we simply hand it over to Him, then He can make us not only more pleasant to be around, but change us from the inside out, changing our levels of kindness and goodness. And, in continuing to have faith, to step into the small things, there can be a self-sowing result. Our actions can have a ripple effect across the entire world. Astounding!! And then we can tell our mountains, our obstacles to move! For once we have experienced the miracles of God within our own lives, we become more courageous to step into the fearful places again and again knowing that God will show up, He will provide and protect and cover us in the places He has called us into.